Ever heard of Tony Robbins? 54 hours in 4 days - jumping, crying, screaming and changing my life.
My take on joining Unleash the Power Within. And going all in.
As I write this it’s 2:15am and I am nowhere near sleepy or ready for bed. I go to bed at 10pm and sleep 10 hours a night for reference.
I have spent most of the last four days having more energy than I thought I had in me, moving as if I had no chronic pain or long covid nor burnout, rewiring my beliefs and behaviours and — wait, what the hell have I been doing?
If you have never heard of Tony Robbins, he is one of the most recognized and famous business strategists worldwide, a New York Times bestselling author, and a peak performance coach. And yes he will sell you his programmes, seminars, immersive experiences, summits, you name it.
Worst, you might have the time of your life joining one and even pay for one.
That’s how I joined Unlesh the Power Within.
And it might very well change a big chunk of your life.
I’m not exaggerating.
How do I prove this to you? Watch me.
I give you six months to watch me as I start living the life that my heart is longing for. And if I don’t get anywhere close to what feels like a gift and my soul’s purpose, call me out on my bullshit. I will happily call myself out then too and change my beliefs system.
Because if that’s not it, I don’t want it.
I don’t know if speaking about how little I slept or how much water I drank, how many hours I spent jumping and how loud I screamt will have any kind of impact or give you an idea about what the last days were like.
So I will share impressions, decisions and the words I feel in my heart. In other words, the impact the seminar had on me. And then I will ask you something.
5 Impressions, decisions and in other words: how it impacted me:
Three days ago when I felt self-doubt crippling in about deciding to start my own business - I had posted this announcement on the UPW sharing group and it had been taken down for unknown reasons - I heard myself talking back and saying:
“I refuse to believe that I can’t have support for this, that’s utter crap”
I reached out to someone else joining the seminar and they told me
“What did you post? Share it here. I’M GLAD YOU PUT THAT VOICE DOWN”.
I did and started a peer group for creating my business.
25 beautiful souls answered the call and are in this together with me now. We have our next step lined up. We’re doing this together.I have been living with chronic pain for over 1,5 years and standing has been painful, dancing quite limited, jumping out of question.
I just spent the last four days not worrying about that, the pain became secondary, I danced and shaked and jumped like I don’t have neighbours downstairs.I connected to strangers and could feel their warmth.
They reached out sharing they had felt my warmth too. We shared our dreams and we shared words of support and encouragement.I felt all the pain I inflicted on myself for living with self doubt and afraid to be myself and how much it has been hurting me, impacting my life until now and how much it is going to impact my future. I saw a future where I would not live to 40 because I would kill myself.
I felt like I broke from all the pain I have brought in my life.
Why? Because I nourish these beliefs daily, I hold on to them, I reinforce them, I don’t fight them.
Why? Because I blame my parents, I blame my brother, I blame the men who raped me, I blame the colleagues who humiliated me.
Why? Because I didn’t believe I was worthy, of love, of success, of being alive. I believed that I didn’t matter.
I had forgotten.That I chose this freaking life. I chose to be born. That my life matters. That I am worthy of all that my heart desires.
The belonging I was seeking is in me, I am the connection, I am the link.
I was always meant to get to know who I am so I can remember this.And if I am to blame my parents, my brother, the men who raped me, the colleagues who humiliated me, for the excrutiating pain and dizzying madness of surviving through violence, through knowing love as fear and loneliness,
then I also have to blame them for the kickass, beautiful and kind woman I have become.
Because there is not one without the other. No past without the human I am today.
What if who I am becoming going through this, is bringing me to have the impact and to live the life that I want eh?
That would be inconvenient wouldn’t it? That I can forgive.
That the pain can fuel my drive, my fire, my heart to create the life I so sincerely believed I didn’t deserve. But well, now I’m already living it. And I’m sure as hell I want to feel its warmth, I want to feel love.I am done underestimating myself, apologising for breathing out loud, for liking who and what I like, for being born.
I am worthy. I am powerful.
And guess what, so are you.
So are all of us.
There is a power inside of you, if only you allow yourself to feel it, to let it free, to nourish it.
What will you choose today?
To critise your own thoughts and desires?
Or to act like you matter, to reach out when you need help, to talk back when someone tells you you can’t.
How can you ever know what you are truly capable of if you are not trying to do what you think you can’t do?
How will you know if your doubts and fear of failing are true if you won’t even put yourself out in the game?
Why won’t you give yourself a chance?
My point exactly.
So I dare you. I challenge you to choose what you believe in today, to choose to believe in yourself and to take one action toward the life you want.
And I challenge you to not wait to see how my life has changed in 6 months to take that one decision you’ve been putting off for years but that you feel your heart is longing for.
It’s time now. Your time. My time too.
There’s a bunch of people waiting to connect with you and support you on a journey that will make you jump of excitement and joy.
Will you take the step and reach out?
Will you bet on yourself this time?
Because I will.
I bet on you.
Whatever this dream of yours this is, I want to hear about it. I want to support it.
I bet on you.